More Than Ever

The unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. –1 Peter 3:4

Anything worthwhile in this life is intentional… nothing just happens. My friendships, for example… intentional. My eating habits… intentional. Keeping my job… definitely intentional. All of it… It’s all intentional. Something even with the slightest success has some amount of time and thought put into it.

With that being said… A heart that desperately seeks the face of God does not just happen. It is the most intentional thing that can be done. Why? Because as Jeremiah 7:9 says, “The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful, a puzzle that no one can figure out.”

Half the time I don’t really know what I want… and by default my heart is programed to deceive itself from the confusion of the puzzle it has created. More often times than not, the last thing we want to do is to stop and reevaluate our emotions and thoughts… the deepest secrets of our hearts.

“But I, God, search the heart and examine the mind. I get to the heart of the human. I get to the root of things. I treat them as they really are, not as they pretend to be” (Jeremiah 7:10).

When I step back and look at all the times I was caught up on something that I thought I absolutely HAD to have, I can honestly say that the uneasiness or dissatisfaction was always rooted in something society told me. Something I thought would make my life complete. Things I thought I couldn’t live without. And funny enough, I somehow failed to see that I had always lived perfectly fine without them… in fact, years and years without them before those “oh, so desperate” moments even arose, but obviously that’s beside the point. I needed them and I needed them now.

I love the snippet of scripture I opened with. An unfading beauty of a gentle and quite spirit…. The very thing that God finds great worth in. Another version states… the very thing he sees as precious. Our life should be a life that is stabilized by a quite gentleness. Not an anxiety that desperately strives for what we want. Or rather, what we think we want. Thank God, he never just gave me that. I’d be such an obnoxious brat and He knows it.

The more I mature, the more I find myself praying words that are very similar to a song written by Elevate Worship. Which I have attached to the bottom of this. Take a listen and remind yourself that he knows the real you, not the “you”, you pretend to be. He holds both your heart and desires. Give them to Him and guard what comes in. Proverbs 4:23 says, “Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life…” or as the message would say, “keep vigilant watch over” for it is the place “where life starts.”

-Jess